Dark Abyss

2011-11-15T12:03:00.006+08:00

許多的事情，總是在經歷過後才懂得。一如感情，痛過了，才懂得如何保護自己；傻過了，才懂

得如何適時的堅持與放棄，在得到與失去中我們慢慢的認識自己。其實，生活並不需要這麼些無

謂的執著，們有什麼就真的不能割捨。學會放棄，生活就真的容易。

學會放棄，在落淚之前轉身離去，留下簡單的身影；

學會放棄，將昨天埋在心底，留下最美好的回憶；

學會放棄，讓彼此都能有一個更輕鬆的開始，遍體鱗傷得的愛並不一定刻骨銘心。

這一程情深緣淺，走到今天已是不易，輕輕的抽出手，說聲再見，真的很感謝這一路有你。

曾說過愛你的，今天，仍是愛你。只是，愛你，卻不能和你在一起，一如愛那原野，愛它，卻不

能攜它歸去。每一份感情都很美，每一程相伴都令人迷醉。是不能擁有的遺憾讓我們更感眷戀。

感情是一份沒有答案的問卷，苦苦的最尋並不能讓生活更圓滿，也許一點遺憾，一絲傷感，會讓

這份問卷更雋永，也更久遠。收拾起心情，繼續走吧！錯過花，你將收穫雨；錯過他，我才遇

到了你。繼續走吧，你終將收穫自己的美麗。一個永遠不想失去你的人，未必是愛你的人，未

必對你忠心耿耿。有時只是這種腦袋不清的強烈的佔有欲者，他們才會做出各種"損人不利己"的

事情，還如此理所當然。在心中如果有"曾經擁有就永遠不要失去"的偏執狂與佔有欲，越想獲得

愛的永久保證書，只會越走越偏離。誰說喜歡一樣東西就一定要得到它。有時候，有些人，為

了得到他喜歡的東西，殫精竭慮，費盡心機，更甚者會不擇手段，以致走向極端，也許他得到了

喜歡的東西，但是在追逐的過程中，失去的東西也無法計算，付出的代價是其得到的東西所無法

彌補的，也許那代價是沉重的，直到最後才會被發現罷了，其實喜歡一樣東西，並不一定要得到

它，有時候為了強求一樣東西而令自己身心疲憊，是很不划算的，再者，有些東西是"只可遠觀不

可近焉"，一旦你得到了它，日子久了你可能會發現它並不如想像中那般美好，如果你在發現你失

去的和放棄的東西更珍貴的時候，我想你一定會懊悔不已，所以也常有這樣一句話"得不到的永遠

是最好的"，所以當你喜歡一樣東西時，得到它並不是你最明智的選擇。誰說喜歡一個人就要和

他（她）在一起，有時候，有些人，為了能和自己喜歡的人在一起，他們不惜使用"一哭二鬧三上

吊"這種最原始的方法，想以此來挽留愛人的人，但是這並不能挽留住他的心，更有甚者，為了這

而賠上自己那年輕而又燦爛的生命，可能會喚起愛人的回應吧，但是這給他（她）帶來了更多的

自責與內疚，還有不安，從此快樂就會和他（她）揮手告別。其實喜歡一個人，並不一定要和他

（她）在一起的，雖然有人說：不在乎天長地久，只在乎曾經擁有，但是並不是所有的人都會快

樂，喜歡一個人，最重要的是讓他幸福快樂，因為他的喜怒哀樂都會帶來你的情緒的波動，所以

也常有這樣一句話：你快樂，所以我快樂。喜歡一樣東西，就要學會欣賞它，珍惜它，使它更

彌足珍貴。喜歡一個人，就要讓他（她）幸福，使那份感情更誠摯，如果你做不到，那你還是

放手吧！所以有時候，有些人，有時候，也要學會放棄，因為放棄也是一種美麗！

2011-09-25T22:47:00.002+08:00

哭的时候没人哄，我学会了坚强..

怕的时候没人陪，我学会了勇敢..

烦的时候没人问，我学会了承受..

累的时候没人可以依靠，我学会了自立..

就这样我找到了自己，

原来我很优秀，更可贵的是，世界上，

我只有一个，只有一个我！

渐渐地，我成熟了..

知道了人是被逼出来的..

只有压力才有动力，因为没有更大的不如意，

所以现在的不如意也是幸福的..！

想要成蝶的蛹就要破茧，

想要重生的凤凰就要蘖磐，

就要坚强，即使独自悲伤，

也不要去乞求怜悯..

嗟来的是廉价的，赶上的是便宜的，

在追求美好的同时不要失去自我，要始终做我自己，

只有自己才拥有自己全部的风格，谁也模仿不了，真实的你没有盗版！

相信自己可以撑起属于自己的那片蓝天~

是马就应去驰骋草原，是鹰就该去翱翔天宇，而我只需要做好我自己！

生活所迫又怎样，环境不好又怎样，困难大又怎样，这一切都需要你自己去打拼！

拼不出来就找个地盘老实呆着！

这社会谁会可怜你啊！

不能主宰别人就管好自己，给自己个机会去重生，

被逼出来的你才是蜕变的英雄，把握好这个机会，去展示全新的自己，

跌倒了才懂得受伤的滋味.

爱上等于哀伤，宁可高傲的发霉，也不低调的凑合。

无聊时看看书，孤独时找个最好的朋友聊聊，

多疼疼自己，健康是一切的本钱。

不要过分去强求不属于自己的东西，

因为那样毫无意义，潇洒的放下该放下的..

2011-09-07T11:18:00.002+08:00

Wear sunscreen.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth.

Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded.

But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.

You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future.

Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum.

The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts.

Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy.

Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind.

The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults.

If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life.

The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives.

Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't.

Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't.

Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary.

Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either.

Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body.

Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it.

It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance - even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions., even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go,
but with a precious few you should hold on.

Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Accept certain inalienable truths:

Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old.

And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you.

Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it.

Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

2011-03-12T10:18:00.002+08:00

After 2 months....

Time fly... everything seem just happen, flash back last year at this time.

i just came to australia... searching for who i am, searching what i really can be and searching what is my limit stand? after a year i still have any clue...

Found a friend and thought she will be "friend". end up what i see is making use of each other.

this friend really in the way? guess i"m still very naive... too soft hearted.

tired of being heart broken again and again.

will try my best to force on my study~

This coming 19 and 20 i going to have my rider license test... if i pass that i will have my own bike on the coming May or June~

I Miss you mum, family n My rainpoh~

to be continue

2010-12-03T01:13:00.003+08:00

2/12/2010 4.30 pm
Po Po has gone.....

What a beautiful day it was when you went to those heavenly gates

No more pain and suffering.

We know you were eager and very happy to go.

The smile on your face and the peace you showed was priceless.

All the family came that day to say the things we needed to let you know it was alright.

we remember every moment that we shared,

seems like only yesterday,

or maybe it was eons ago,

It's really hard to say.

You are gone from us now,

but one thing they can't take away,

your memory resides inside our heart,

and lights up ours darkest days.

RIP Ours Dearest Po Po.

2010-11-26T10:15:00.004+08:00

Since March i have been stay at australia for 9 month.

Being a student and working at the same time. it not easy at all, but i actually quite enjoy it.

faced the first winter in my life. understand difference culture, etc.....

Recently i heard that grandma having chest pain, and went it to hospital for diagnostic...

and the result is Blood cancer... and maybe she only has 3-6 month.

Prayed hard for her and hope that she don't suffer...

Right now i was stay with a England family and one of my school mate.

England named Ian. he is the house owner son, and my friend joey.

they all are very friend....

Hmpz...

I had just finish my first term in school.. and going back to singapore for holiday on this December. looking forward... can't wait to cuddle my mother. sister and Rainpoh.

So this is it... will update again...

2010-11-24T18:47:00.003+08:00

Message:

When you think of ur past love, u may view
it as a failure. But when u find a new love, u view e
past as a teacher.

In e game of love, it doesnt really matter who won
or who lost. What is important is u know when to
hold on and when to let go!

u know u really love someone when u want him or
her to be happy even if his or her happiness
means that u are not part of it.

Everything happens for e best.

If e person u love doesnt love u back, dont be
afraid to love someone else again, for u will never
know unless u give it a try. u will never love a
person u love unless u risk for love.

Love strikes in hurting. If u dont get hurt, u dont
learn how to love. Love doesnt hurt all e time.

Though e hurting is still there to test u, to help u
grow. Dont find love, let love find u. That is why it
is called falling in love because u dont force urself
to fall. u just fall.

u cannot finish a book without closing its chapters.
If u want to go on, then u have to leave e past as
u turn e pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won
by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which
we are always learning, discovering and growing.

e greatest irony of love is letting go when u need
to hold on and holding on when u need to let go.

We lose someone we love only when we are
destined to find someone else who can love us
even more than we can love ourselves.

On falling out of love, take some time to heal and
then get back on the horse. But dont ever make e
same mistake of riding e same one that threw u e
first time.

To love is to risk rejection; to live is to risk dying,
to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken
because e greatest hazard in life is risking nothing!

To reach for another is to risk involvement, to
expose ur feelings is to expose true self. To love
is to risk not to be loved in return.

How to define love; fall but not stumble, be
constant but not too persistent, share and never
be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt
but never keep e pain.

Love is like a knife. It can stab e heart or it can
carve wonderful images into e soul that always
last for a lifetime.

Love is supposed to be e most wonderful feeling.
It should inspire u and give u joy and strength. But
sometimes e things that give u joy can also hurt
you in e end.

Loving people means giving them e freedom that
they choose to be and where they choose to be.
Loving someone means giving him or her e
freedom to find his or her way, whether it lead
towards u or away from u.

Love is a painful risk to take but e risk must be
taken, no matter how scary or painful, for only
then u will experience e fullness of humanity and
that is
love.

Only love can hurt ur heart, fill u with desire and
tear u apart. Only love can make u cry and only
love knows why.

If u are not ready to cry, if u are not ready to take
e risk, if u are not ready to feel e pain, then u are
not ready to fall in love.

There was a time in our lives when we became
afraid to fall in love because every time we do, we
get hurt, then I figured that is why it is called falling
in love.

Whatever happened, dont give up! It is just a trial.
Have faith in urself and cheer up.

2010-06-16T00:11:00.004+08:00

It has being sometimes that i haven update my blog...

Recently i'm looking for a new adventure to brighten up my life.

Rather then I just stuck at where I am and asking god for mercy.

Went to new a places hoping to start something new to change my life.

Wanted to improve my English. Brush up my grammar and spelling.

Wanted to get myself a diploma...

Hoping when I back to Singapore, I can find a better job.

And lead a better life for my family...

No Matter how much pain i have to gain I never give up....

2010-03-12T11:35:00.003+08:00

Is has been so long for the last update...

Actually nothing much happened, just being busy with my stuff.

After 3 days i'm going to somewhere that not much people really know

where Am i going...

Shh...

wait for my next update bah... maybe you will have some idea.

Wish me Luck.❤

2010-02-01T22:26:00.000+08:00

2010-01-19T19:06:00.002+08:00

Photo that i took recently

2010-01-01T18:19:00.007+08:00

Happy New Year....

Wish that this year will be much more better then 2009.

First day of new year i was all by my own...

watching firework alone at KL hotel.

Feel so lonely how I wish I was with My family n RainPoh..

But too bad I can't 01-01-2010... all by myself.

and I'm sick again.

I guess I have to be more stronger...

Now I'm at KL one of the internet cafe,

listening to My iPod n updating this post....

I don't much left to write.

I think I will just stop here. Coz people siting beside me keep looking at me.

I leaving right after I post this....

So wish everyone Happy New Year...

wish the whold world will share more LOVE,JOY and PEACE.

All The Best!

Ps. Father you takecare wor...

Happy New Year to you..

2009-12-13T20:34:00.003+08:00

Month of december... last month of 2009.

for all this time what have i been doing?

My target My aim. it all like a nightmare.

everything wasn't easy as what i thought...

But i still bite my teeth still holding on everything.

I will done my very best to reach what i can.

Now my current job. have giving me a lot of stress.

the stress lever is getting higher n higher.

I don't think I can handle it anymore.

Really thinking of give up....

Is this a challenge given by God?

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visited Father with queenie n Rainpoh last Saturday.

2009-11-28T18:50:00.007+08:00

Started working on 23 nov @--aluminium.

everyday have to start work from 8.30am.

*faint*

So far so good..

erm... just having a little bit problem on paper work.

And this really driving me nuts!

paper work just never end...

colleagues there are friendly and helpfull

once again thanks for all the patience given.

I'm looking forward for this job. hope it can bring me as far as I could.

My new pet.

Went for hair cut... and i regret it!

2009-11-17T12:22:00.002+08:00

Found myself today

I found myself and ran away

Something pulled me back

The voice of reason I forgot I had

All I know is you're not here to say

What you always used to say

But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up

No I won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And I will be strong

Even if it all goes wrong

When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light

And it's shining on my destiny

Shining all the time

And I wont be afraid

To follow everywhere it's taking me

All I know is yesterday is gone

And right now I belong

To this moment to my dreams

2009-11-16T22:42:00.010+08:00

Happy birthday to me...

Thank you My Family for being patience for my nonsense.

P.S mother thank you what you done for me.

This is a day i born, it also a day which you suffer the most too.

I love you forever mother.

Thank Father charlie for the ang bao

Thank my Jie Jie n Jie Fu for the stitch n ang bao

Thank my Mei mei for the bday card

Thank my RainPoh for the yummy bday cake...

And Thanks all my friend for all the wishes...

2009-10-28T15:02:00.003+08:00

Land Hermit Crabs(COENOBITA CLYPEATUS)are fascinating animals. Hermit Crabs make great pets because they do not carry any known disease and are hypo-allergenic, which make Hermit Crabs a perfect pet for those with allergies. Land Hermit Crabs are very low maintenance and are easy to take care of. They do not require large amounts of space and they are odorless. In the wild Land Hermit Crabs live inland away from the water. Land Hermit crabs are also non-aggressive, unlike many of the sea crabs. However, in the unlikely event that a Hermit Crab grabs your skin, the Hermit Crab will release immediately upon contact with warm water. Simply place the pincher under warm water (make sure it's not hot) and the hermit crab will instinctively release. Hermit crabs are nocturnal and are more active at night than during the day. Hermit Crabs are not solitary animals and it is suggested to have more than one because of their social nature. In fact, in the wild we see Hemit Crabs move from one area to another as a group. Some natives even refer to them as "soldier crabs" due to their habit of "trooping" in numbers.

Cute? this is my new pet..... ^-^*

2009-10-27T02:26:00.005+08:00

WooHoo... the road show had over!!

I was so tired...

Thanks guys for all the support and bear with all my nonsense.

Been working 15 hours a day. MAD... keke... call me the wonderwoman!!

I just went to visit Father... he fine n strong.

nothing much. we bring him for dinner at Geylang.

"prawn mee"

Then fetch him home. cut all his finger nail.

His finger nail is longer then mine.... scary!

then he start to show off his ice-cream that he made...

well the ice-cream... Not bad. but i don't really like to eat ice-cream...

Then queenie singing movie clip....

after then i told him i going to left, he start to grumble...

say i came so late couldn't go anywhere...

*shake head*

2009-10-20T01:05:00.005+08:00

First day of the Apple road show

"Apple Shop at Plaza Singapura Roadshow

promo details is now available at www.infiniteasia.com/sg"

have been standing all day! 10.30am until 8pm

Sold 2 iPod touch. =.="
I hope is a good start...
legs are SUPER numb... 6 more days to go.
wish me Luck!!!

After work i went dinner with RainPoh n Mer Mer.

then we went for arcade session...

after which is late night shopping at Mustafa...

**Yawn** is time for me to sleep le...

will update again as soon as i can.

nitez~

Keke... a little gift from RainPoh...

2009-10-16T00:07:00.008+08:00

有些人一直没机会见，等有机会见了，却又犹豫了，相见不如不见。

有些事一直没机会做，等有机会了，却不想再做。

有些话埋藏在心中好久，没机会说，等有机会说的时候，却说不出口。

有些爱一直没机会爱，等有机会了，却已经不爱。

有些人很多机会相见的，却总找借口推脱，想见的时候已经没有机会。

有些话有很多机会说的，却想着以后再说，要说的时候，已经没有机会。

有些事有很多机会做的，却一天一天推迟，想做的时候却发现没有机会。

有些爱给了你很多机会，却不在意没在乎，想重视的时候已经没有机会爱了。

人生有时候，总是很讽刺。

一转身可能就是一世。说好永远的，不知怎么就散了。

最后自己想来想去竟然也搞不清当初是什么原因分开彼此的。

然后，你忽然醒悟，感情原来是这么脆弱的。

经得起风雨，却经不起平凡；风雨同船，天晴便各自散。

也许只是赌气，也许只是因为小小的事。

幻想着和好的甜蜜，或重逢时的拥抱，

那个时候会是边流泪边捶打对方，还傻笑着。

该是多美的画面。

没想到的是，一别竟是一辈子。

于是，各有各的生活，各自爱着别的人。

曾经相爱，现在已互不相干。

即使在同一个小小的城市，也不曾再相逢。

某一天某一刻，走在同一条街，也看不见对方。

先是感叹，后来是无奈。

也许你很幸福，因为找到另一个适合自己的人。

也许你不幸福，因为可能你这一生就只有那个人真正用心在你身上。

2009-10-14T15:58:00.002+08:00

Lost at sea

And i will hold

your head above

the waves that hope

to swallow and

drag you down.

I see fear

in your eyes

yet they still shine

with passion of

an indescribable kind

like a blanket of stars

in a moonless sky

as the world

continues to hold us

against this endless horizon

in this lonely sea

you and i

knew for the first time

what it meant

to be together

and still remain alone

We could die like this

in each others arms alone

miles and miles far

from what we call our home

but this ending is beautiful

our hearts could beat as one

as we close our eyes

for the final time

goodbye faith

goodbye fear

nothing can never

take this from us.

2009-10-09T18:09:00.005+08:00

Back for an update

Wanted to thank you My reader,

For all the support,

Waited so long for an update.

Actually I do not know what to put on...

I had been working pub at night,

Seen a lot,

People who drank, vomit, fighting and all kind of nonsense

I felt like i was trapped in those terrifying nightmare

I am so sick of my life.

I feel people around make full use of me.

Sometime i feel Puzzled...

Why I'm so chowderhead?

All the thing that I have done.

I don't see any appreciation,

The disappointment that she gave.

Make me feel sorrowful and exhausted.

No matter how hard I try.

Thing just couldn't be better...

Is this my destiny?

This is time for me to let go?

2009-10-09T14:12:00.002+08:00

I'm back for an update...

Wanted to apologies to my reader.

For waited so long for an update.

Actually I don't know what to put down...

I felt like I was trapped in terrifying nightmares.

I have been working night job this few pass few week..

everyday facing lot of people drank, vomit, fighting and all kind of Nonsense

I'm so sick of my life.

The worst is

I felt that people around me.

Keep tell lie to me..

Sometimes I was puzzled.

People make full use of me,

So brainless.

What I have done for her,

She does not appreciate

All the disappointment she gave.

Let me feel frustrate and exhausted.

Is this my destiny?

This is a time for me to let go?

God I needed help here?

Who will be there?

Where am I?

2009-09-16T14:26:00.003+08:00

Back for another update ..

Working like crazy trying to be iron woman.

Work for morning 10 am till 4 am

for 4 day. loss weight,

Voice and Sick

But feel very happy working with them.

Feel that I am still useful.

After the show everything when back to normal

Working at night make me feel bored.

Feel so lonely.

Really have to Find back myself.

My Bravo My Awesome

Thank for all the effort.

till now i still thinking should i go back to P.A mart

2009-09-06T14:57:00.004+08:00

I miss my blog...

Lots of thing happened this few weeks...

didn't have a right time to update my blog…

28 August 2009 i went to 五月天concert 2009

*thumbs up*

Never regret to be there.

then has been working n sleeping

till last night is a bit different...

totally DRANK

this is my 2nd time vomiting after drinking

Grooosssss~

believe me it don't feel good at all...

managed to be home around 3... was a little sober

Hate this feeling!

2009-08-25T17:01:00.003+08:00

Miss Sotong for the day...

Left My Hp on the Cab......

2009-08-21T14:06:00.004+08:00

Raining day....

Last night having lot of fun playing with grabing machine ....

Rainpoh, Mer Mer n Me.

Had totally out of our mind... crazy GRABing...

Mer Mer de magic word One more One More...

I reached home at around 2plus...

Mum, Jie n Mei they wait for me to be home...

And have Supper with me....

"{they have to work early morning for the next day"}

I My family....

2009-08-20T13:16:00.004+08:00

Last night i enjoy working at "Crazy Hour"

Everyone is very kind n they really help me a lot...

Bought a new pair of shoe....

last night is really busy, been walking up down...

that new pair of shoe is killing me..

Rainpoh came to meet me n bring along my heel..

thanks lot...

What a surprise Edward, edwin and jeff came to support me...

THANK YOU Guys.... ♥touch♥

Follow by Mike... i have not meet mike for about 3 to 4 month.. .

He slim down.... Agrh... I need to jia you to slim down too....

Deric thank you

2009-08-19T13:51:00.001+08:00

Lost

lost in a world that scares me to death,

lost in a crowd i'm losing my breath,

lost as a kid, lost as an adult,

i feel everything is falling apart and its all my fault,

lost as a person, cant find my way out,

lost in life everyday, lost in worry,

Who am i?

i've lived a lie,

lost to kindness,

lost to love,

lost in the night sky,

like a lonely dove,

lost in thought, which i shouldn't do,

it wonds me up,

i can't get through,

lost to comfort of all kinds words,

lost to advice that isn't heard,

lost to those that really care?

all these people always there,

lost in Me, i need a break,

lost in wonder, which road should i take?

lost in a place i don't know very well,

Where are you now? theres no 1 to tell,

lost here, all alone to break these walls,

lost in mind,

lost in soul,

lost memories, there just a hole,

lost family, lost my place,

still yet, i'm full of hate,

lost in boredom think i'll leave,

theres a lot in life i need to achieve!

2009-08-17T20:55:00.003+08:00

I feel very insecure

Each and every times when he said: I love You.

i always put a smile on my face and i nod my head....

totally believe in this R/S....

everything seem putting down... after i see this sms

HIS EX

suddenly... i feel 承诺, is just some sweet talk that melt your heart...

And it break your heart too....

I know this is just a very normal sms... but is from RENA.

I feel something funny inside my heart...

2009-08-14T15:42:00.005+08:00

Yesterday I have summit my resign letter.

recall it back for this 2 months i have learn a lot about 'EQ'

and i have suffer a lot...

Working at here almost make me cried everyday.

I never feel so lost before...

Morale and passion all gone... I feel so weak right now...

Can't see where I am, what I doing... I'm so hollow.

觉得自己很一无事处

Today morning I went for another interview, look forward for my new start.

the guy who interview me,

keep emphasize that his shop need someone

Who can speak english in very fluent way....

I feel like I'm a joker...

To be frankly, I can't speak fluent english.

I cannot write good english in proper grammar....

even my reader laugh at me. "at tag box"

But I keep learning to do my best.

People around me keep saying that, I am a very hardworking girl.

But at Singapore "work hard" don't seem to work...

Work smart don't work hard

Suddenly I felt I'm nothing but just a dumb bull.

End of the day. I just become a plate of dish.

2009-08-11T22:58:00.005+08:00

Counting... 7, 8, 9 ,10,

I didn't update my blog for 4day le...

not in a mood to update....

too many thing happen....

this week at my showroom have came

a new in-charge...

I named him MR Hor fan.... well....

he is a very annoying person...

but in the other way he just trying to be help...

"other word- he is trying to be a hero"

which i don't really can accept this way he act.....

he keep forcing people to follow what he think....

the worst he think he is alway right....

sometimes really can't stand him.... agrh.....

just now right after my work i went to visit FATHER

Wahoo... he cut his hair....

brand new look.....

look good huh? look more clean ,tidy, younger,friendly and kind too.....

thanks rainpoh fetch me there.

Later at 3pm plus....

i going for interview.... hope everything is fine....

don't really know which way to go.....

should i stay?

whatever it better for me go for all the interview first

then decide where should i go.

GooD Luck For Me..... GOD BLESS....

Good nite....

2009-08-07T15:49:00.001+08:00

I LOVE YOU

I-Inject　　　　----投入
　　　　投入，这个投入有很多概念，有对自己所爱的人，投入自己所有的感情，让你所爱的人感受到你真实的爱的存在，也有对自己的投入，投入自己对爱的理念的深入，对爱的真谛的理解，对双方未来的理性思考。还有在经济方面的投入也是不可缺少的，没有面包的爱情，真的很难在现实中存在的。总之要获得爱情就要投入的很多!

L-Loyal　　　----忠诚
　　　　忠诚，对自己所爱的人的一种必备的东西，没有了忠诚也就不会再在爱情的存在，双方都要将自己的爱全身心的投入到对方中，对自己爱情观的一种见证，对自己爱情的负责。总之忠诚是真正爱情的必备之物!

O-Observant　----用心
　　　　用心，自然很容易就会想到，对自己所爱的人用心，当然同样也不要忘记对自己用心，如果一个人都不能对自己用心，那还能对谁用心呢？所以对自己用心，善待自己，也是不可缺少的，用心是双向的，用心去理解爱情，才会让双方的爱情更加的牢固。总之用心就是爱情的桥梁通往彼此的心灵深处!

V-Valiant　　 ----勇敢
　　　　勇敢，也许是要获得爱情的必备武器。这个武器很容易得到，因爲就在各自的身上，可是也是些人所苦苦追寻的，爱情就是需要勇敢，勇敢的面对自己的爱情，让自己的爱情不要留下任何遗憾，勇敢的去爲自己的爱情而打拼，勇敢的爲自己所爱的人而努力奋斗。总之勇敢就是爱情的武器爲爱情保驾护航。

E-Enjoyment　----喜悦
　　　　喜悦，就是在得到或是经歷过上面的一切后所获得的果实，虽然这还是一颗未能成熟的果实，不过当看到果实的形成，你就会知道自己以前的付出是有回报的，因此你们都沈浸在欢乐的喜悦当中。这时爱情的果实已经形成，以后还需要你和对方共同去呵护这个来之不易的果实。总之此时的喜悦是对爱情的肯定爲爱情而存在。

Y-Yes　　　　----愿意
　　　愿意，当看到这个词时，想到的多半是电视剧中的情节。牧师在新人的双方中间，问女方，你愿意嫁给他吗？男方也一样的。这样的情节，已经见多不怪了，但这两个词所得到的就是一个成熟的果实，愿意，愿意将自己的一半託付给自己所爱的人，这应该是一种幸福。总之说出愿意是得到爱情前的最后美妙的时候。

O-Obligation　----责任
　　　责任，不要以爲自己获得了爱情就没有什么责任了，相反你所面临的重担将会加剧，对爱情的责任，要对自己努力得到的爱情有一种延续，是对自己所爱的人的一种负责，也是对自己的负责；对家庭的责任，爱自己的亲人，不要辜负了你所爱的人对你的爱，这种爱已经将转换到对家庭中，所以要你们都去爲之努力。总之爱情的责任将会一直都存在你的周围，爲之努力奋斗将是我们所必备的!

U-Unison　　 ----和谐
　　　和谐，这个词向来都是对家庭而言的，一个和谐的家庭是每个人的向往，也是我们所应追求的，并爲之努力创造的。和谐总能给人以安静详和的一种感觉，给人以白头携老的一种意境!总之和谐是爱情的美好境界!

妈咪，I LOVE U

2009-08-05T14:08:00.003+08:00

Evian Roller Babies

So small yet already incredible!

2009-08-03T23:21:00.000+08:00

他們說...
语言的巨人，行动的矮子。

人對身邊不如意事情感到無力，是智慧不足。孔雀靠吃有毒植物維生，卻生就一身漂亮羽毛，做人不怕受傷害，才會發出光芒

佛家叫人不要執著，但又經常叫人不要追求，這也是一種執著。有些規矩是應該遵守的，但也要進步　｛釋行宇｝

每個人一出生，就有一個叫＂命運＂的合夥人，命運是大股東，它是佔上風的，自己雖然是小股東，但也要盡力做到最好　{黃效文}

男人有錢才變壞, 女人變壞才有錢 {王貽興}

感情這東西就像戒煙, 用任何方法都沒有用, 關鍵在於你自己的決定 {何守信}

生命其實可以無須過分沉重, 許多往事往往只是心態問題 {趙良駿}

沒有人可以幫你活, 也沒有人可以替你活, 更沒有人知道你是怎麼活過來的, 但日子過得開不開心, 卻會影響往後人生的發展 {潘美辰}

如果連自己都不知道輸的理由，那才失敗

快樂不能治病, 但快樂能令你不容易生病

學過的東西如果不教人等於沒學過

"說謊" 是賣弄小聰明, "圓謊" 則需要大智慧

人, 像子彈, 最圓滑的去得最遠 {紀小敏}

我們不能改變過去的事, 但是可以改變這些事對我們的影響 {virginia satir}

it isn't what you earn, it is what you learn

人生只要做對了一件事, 就不算白活 {張景開}

不要用自己的见识去衡量别人 {塵}

很多人喜欢抄袭, 模仿, 这是对自己才华的否认. 很多人害怕他人抄袭, 模仿, 这是对自己才华储量的置疑 {塵}

良心跟脸一样，首先自己要有，自己都没有的东西要求别人给？可能吗?

因為你是好人, 就希望世界對你公平, 就好像你吃素, 以為牛就不會撞你

我們以為很懂愛情, 其實累計的知識和經驗, 反而謀殺了愛情, 愛情靠直覺, 人類卻用理性製造了殘酷

愛情裡, 要嘛就是對自己殘酷, 要嘛就是對別人殘酷, 愛情本身不殘酷, 殘酷的是人, 人決定了愛情殘酷的程度

我們需要在生命裡做出很多自己相信的錯誤答案,去支持我們的人生道路

樹不要皮必死無疑, 人不要臉天下無敵

不要小看口水, 因為它到達你臉上的方式, 常常決定你在這個世界上是多一位愛人, 還是仇人 {蔡康永}

success is not the destination, success is the journey

不求與人相比, 只求超越自己 {郭富城}

自己的人生是為活著的人去做事, 而不是為躺在棺材裡的人做事

休息是為了更久的休息 {蔡康永}

不要和豬打架, 豬喜歡骯髒, 他會很開心, 所以有必要嗎?

我不需要確定, 就已經很確定 {范文芳}

2009-08-01T22:23:00.005+08:00

People wait to know whats right...

Wait to hear those words...

Wait for time to pass by...

Wait to believe whats true...

Wait for Him to answer...

Wait to know whats coming...

People wait for the pain to subside...

wait to understand how life walks along...

Wait for dreams to come true...

Wait for the touch of that hand...

Wait for the tears to roll back up...

wait for the sun to rise again...

People wait for hope to pull them through...

Wait for their savior to arrive...

Wait thinking that they will stop...

Wait hoping they can quit...

wait until the darkness seizes...

Wait for courage to give them strength...

As I stand here amongst the waiting....

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2009-07-29T20:11:00.007+08:00

It’s 2009. And people are still forwarding emails and SMSes hoping to win something.

Hello?!

1. It’s funny how boh liao people who initiate SMS hoaxes usually have bad grammar. 60 billion, not 60 billions. 10 people, not 10 person.

2. Under the Anti Spam Act (or whatever it’s called), Singapore companies are required to insert <> when initiating mass messaging.

3. No self respecting corporation the size of these telcos will have smileys in their messages. Emoticons are reserved for casual messaging, and should not find their way into formal communication channels. If they do, it’s time to send the PR folks packing.

edit from http://www.cruzteng.com/

2009-07-26T12:45:00.009+08:00

This some photo that i took recently

i WANT canon eos D50 Camera!!!!!

2009-07-24T18:10:00.005+08:00

Yesterday day nite...

Right after i finish my work at 8...

I was forced to work my part time job.

this time is not so lucky... My Rainpoh didn't fetch me after my work,

Because he has important event to attend.

This is my first time taking bus to my part time job places....

And I was having fever.... waited for 15 min...

finally the bus arrived. i aboard with fear, coz I'm not sure is it correct.

"I alway lost my way"

Hai.... I'm Really Unluckly.... way on the journey, there a tall guy knock me on my head...

by using his elbow.... PAIN..... He keep rub my head n apologize to me.

i just look at him n keep saying I'm okay.... actually is very pain.

Lol.... guess what? now my forehead has a very big BAO now......

THANK to my Rainpoh giving the right way.... i didn't late for my work.

when i start to work... i find out Y my boss so angry when i tell him i may not going to work..

Because is only 2 gal working for yesterday night... -plus me-

last nite is almost full house...

at 10pm e other gal... Drank badly cannot even stand....

Argh......

I was so busy

I can't smoke wif my rainpoh, when he came to visit me.

(-sorry Rainpoh-)

I have been walking up n down with my 5inch high heels....

11 pm walking up n down. top up beer. clean table. help my customer with their need

12 pm walking up n down top up beer. clean table. help my customer with their need

1 pm stil walking up n down top up beer. clean table. help my customer with their need

finally 2.25.... knock off.... i was so tired n hungry...

After work i join My school mate for supper at

Kallang Mac. Cant wait to bite my Yummy chicken burger.

lol... they laught at me n said

*A! you dun noe how to eat ar....*

when i was still biting my burger.

Ping took tissue to to clean up all the mess on my face....

But i find out ping hand is more dirty then my face....

Soooo touch.... Thank wor..... *shake head*

Everyone eyes turn red....*tired le not angry* time to go back.

then they fetch me home.

reach home around 2.50plus

My her sms me that she meeting her boy at downstairs...

I send out a very long sms to her... _-4 pages-_

then went to shower.

the stupid dog bark at me... and i stil got to clean up the dog poo poo

Sad....

At around 5.44am

I hear my mum shouting at the phone ask her to be back home...

I feel the pain at my chest again... it feel like someone is tearing my heart....

teach her all the thing end up all used at me...

she only use eyes to read my sms............

I waited she reach home... n get back to sleep again.

Wake up with anger this morning.....

I can't promise to solve all your promise,

But i can promise you won't have to face them alone....

2009-07-23T11:36:00.005+08:00

I'M TOTALLY LOST

This few day there is lots of thing happen so suddenly.....

That i couldn't accept...

been Cried for few day.

i keep think all the thing that i done for her...

Is the thing that she want?

Difficult that she face..........

Am i pushing too hard for her?

Am i doing the right thing for her?

I really don't know.

Sorry for saying harmful word to you

I didn't mean........

i Just too concern, too afraid you fall... too love you.

有时候觉得自己似乎是多余的

感觉自己所做的

好像没有什么

所付出的并不算什么

别人好像做的比我多

又比我好

有时候

我自己在想

自己是不是到了该放手的时候

也许少了我的存在

并不会有任何的改变

也许他们能够做的比我更好

但是我却又有种不舍

在心中不停的拉扯

放弃梦想的感受
有谁了得
因为某种重任
我必须将它暂时割舍
心中的伤痕
只能用坚强来淹没
但坚强能够延续多久
能够带我走多远
淹没多少的伤痕
我不晓得

Dark Abyss

"Apple Shop at Plaza Singapura Roadshow

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I LOVE YOU

他們說...